You'd think that at the age of 39, I would have this thing figured out by now. Lord knows I have seen and done my share, more so than I believe even I had ever planned on. Far less than most.
And yet, around each bend in the road is an experience or a challenge that I would not imagine, and another that I don't believe I could have planned for.
I used to just push forward, unashamedly, ignorantly and arrogantly. Climb over, dig under, spelunk, crash through, blow up or knock down. I have the internal and external scars to prove my story. So by now I am timidly peering around the corners, ducking back and taking stock of what I see, taking another look and ducking back again. I then rest my back against the metaphysical wall, lurking on my haunches and writing in my wrinkle-free journal all that I have just seen.
I read and re-read my perspective, trying to make sense of what I just tried to make sense...of. I get a lump in my throat, tears brim my bottom eyelid. I don't know what to do next.
Dad. Father. God. Gerald. Grandpa. Uncle Dennis. Dave. Will. Tim. Jamie. Jesus. Jarret.
What would he do?
2 comments:
You'd think that at the age of 52, I'd have this thing figured out....
Jarett, God knows what we need to become like him. He gives us experience that we may grow, be refined, and reach our potential. Caution is good, but don't be so timid that you miss something on that road that would help you reach that goal of becoming like Him, living with him again some day. Perhaps I am a little reckless that way, but it's not the actual destination that gives us experience and growth, it is the journey and how we maneuver the bumps, show patience in the traffic jams, and treat others as we travel that road. Don't be afraid to get out there and do it! You are amazing. You have those divine genes in you - let your light shine! You are an amazing brother, and I'm so thankful our paths have crossed on this road of mortality. You have helped me and inspired me in many ways!
K-
WOW. Thank you.
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